We had to write a poem today in Contemp. Lit class from a quote from another classmate's Goodbye letter. It has a few swear words just to warn you.
Broken Ballerina
Every single day I wait,
Apart of me slips away.
You think that I have forgiven you,
I don't forget the things you did to me.
My life, my passion,
Wound into one.
Dance is what I love,
But you took that away from me you piece of scum.
I will never forget the pain you caused,
Breaking my legs so I can't do what I love.
I was a child and you broke me, glued me back together,
And satisfied yourself with my erroneous transformation.
Once upon a time I broke free of my restraints,
I dance away to my fame.
Twisting and twirling, away falls the layers,
Of your sick desires that you've bound me in.
I've danced away the hell you call home,
Started a new life which you are no more.
Don't be mad that I've ruined your plan,
To keep me forever in your corrupted land.
I don't love you now,
I won't love you ever.
Just stay the hell out of my life,
Happily Ever After.
Every single day I wait,
Apart of me slips away.
You think that I have forgiven you,
I don't forget the things you did to me.
My life, my passion,
Wound into one.
Dance is what I love,
But you took that away from me you piece of scum.
I will never forget the pain you caused,
Breaking my legs so I can't do what I love.
I was a child and you broke me, glued me back together,
And satisfied yourself with my erroneous transformation.
Once upon a time I broke free of my restraints,
I dance away to my fame.
Twisting and twirling, away falls the layers,
Of your sick desires that you've bound me in.
I've danced away the hell you call home,
Started a new life which you are no more.
Don't be mad that I've ruined your plan,
To keep me forever in your corrupted land.
I don't love you now,
I won't love you ever.
Just stay the hell out of my life,
Happily Ever After.
Labels: Poem
There's a lot of things that I long for daily. My cousin Amanda is the main one, she's like my twin sister and its amazing that she's not. We like the same things and even seem to have the same problems with friends and personal problems. It might seem kind of lame but when shes gone it feels like I'm only half of me and life is just duller. When we're together we have the most amazing times ever. I wonder if things would be different if they did lived closer, if we would get on each others nerves more or if it wouldn't be as much fun because we would always be around each other. I wish that my Uncle Dave was still alive, which is her father. It makes me think of my own father and how he lives in AZ and I hardly see him yet I am able to. For Amanda she will never get the chance to physically have her father see her in her prom dress or walk her down the aisle at her wedding.
Even though life moves on and you can't go back I think most people long for something that was in the past. Some type of memory that you wish you could still have or something that happened that you wish would have never gone away. Sometimes it's surprising when those moments come back up and it makes you remember how it was back then. When I was a little girl I was in love with Rainbow Brite. I only had a few episodes of it on VHS but I would watch it over and over. I also had this VHS with some baby songs on it and I would watch that almost everyday when I was a kid. I was surprised one day when I found these old tapes and I decided to watch them. My friend Britt was over and she couldn't figure out what the big deal about these silly cartoon movies was.
Yesterday in Contemporary Lit we read a short story "Girl With The Blackened Eye" by Joyce Carol Oates. The story was about a 15 year old girl who got abducted by a guy and was raped/beaten. He thought her as different from the others because she didn't beg for her life. Because of this she stayed alive and soon gained his trust in being able to wash herself despite the filthy place they lived. The span of this time was only eight days but to her it felt a whole lot more. When one day they went for a car ride people where staring at her and just kind of ignored her figuring that she deserved whatever had happened to her. The guy abducted another woman which he made the girl watch as he raped the woman. He later took the woman into the woods, after she begged him to spare her life because she had a daughter at home, and killed her. When she had a chance to get away she didn't have the will to because of the trust her abductor has in her, she couldn't betray that trust as she said.
I would have to support her decision in not running away because if I was as weak from being stuck in a filthy house all day and not being able to eat food because you're so beat up, the possibilities of being able to get away would be small, given that you're on foot and he has a vehicle. Even though you're with a killer/rapist your safety is a whole lot better if you just stay with him versus trying to get away and have him beat you up worse or kill you.
When she was in the car with him going into town and people just sort of ignored the condition she was in I think that a lot of people do that but not on that type of level. For example when you're at a grocery store or somewhere public and there's some little kids with their parents and the kids are doing something that isn't even that bad and the parents are screaming/ yelling/swearing at the kid to shut up/stop or else they wont get any supper and go to bed early. To me that itself is child abuse and I think the parents should have to get classes on how to parent. Of course if you said something to them they would tell you do stick your words up somewhere the sun doesn't shine. It's just unfair to the child to grow up in that type of household and then become a young adult/adult and end up having depression problems, thinking they aren't good enough for anything and having suicidal thoughts. Not all cases are like this though granted. Some peoples bad childhoods turn into anger and take it out on other people like their parents did to them.
I would have to support her decision in not running away because if I was as weak from being stuck in a filthy house all day and not being able to eat food because you're so beat up, the possibilities of being able to get away would be small, given that you're on foot and he has a vehicle. Even though you're with a killer/rapist your safety is a whole lot better if you just stay with him versus trying to get away and have him beat you up worse or kill you.
When she was in the car with him going into town and people just sort of ignored the condition she was in I think that a lot of people do that but not on that type of level. For example when you're at a grocery store or somewhere public and there's some little kids with their parents and the kids are doing something that isn't even that bad and the parents are screaming/ yelling/swearing at the kid to shut up/stop or else they wont get any supper and go to bed early. To me that itself is child abuse and I think the parents should have to get classes on how to parent. Of course if you said something to them they would tell you do stick your words up somewhere the sun doesn't shine. It's just unfair to the child to grow up in that type of household and then become a young adult/adult and end up having depression problems, thinking they aren't good enough for anything and having suicidal thoughts. Not all cases are like this though granted. Some peoples bad childhoods turn into anger and take it out on other people like their parents did to them.
Labels: Short Story, Teenager
There are so many things that make being a teenager aggravating. The worst thing about being a teenager is when an adult takes you for granted, not all adults do it but the older generation tends to. It's true that the older you are the more wisdom you have but I think that it's wisdom from your era, not the younger generations. I specially hate when they're doing something you know a lot about (computers for example) and when they need help they wont listen to you even though you tell them that you know how to fix the problem. They act as if you don't know what you're doing. It's so frustrating that sometimes I don't even bother saying I'll help someone if they have doubted my help before. Granted it is a good thing to be cautious about accepting peoples help when it comes to certain things, sometimes it can screw things up more. It's the simplest things that people wont listen to you about just because you're younger.
Another thing that makes being a teenager suck is having to go to school and deal with the drama. When you have friends that are more immature than you, you work, and feel like you don't have time to get anything done. Having a job is great because you're earning money that you can spend later or save up to get something really big. But sometimes it would be nice to just be able to take a break and be with friends/family. It doesn't help that it's stressful when you have homework to do when I get home at 9 p.m.
Being a teenager though you have your whole life ahead of you and even though the older generation could piss you off with their ignorance you can learn about the mistakes they had and learn from them or either if you find yourself in their shoes than you'll know how to deal with the problem.
Another thing that makes being a teenager suck is having to go to school and deal with the drama. When you have friends that are more immature than you, you work, and feel like you don't have time to get anything done. Having a job is great because you're earning money that you can spend later or save up to get something really big. But sometimes it would be nice to just be able to take a break and be with friends/family. It doesn't help that it's stressful when you have homework to do when I get home at 9 p.m.
Being a teenager though you have your whole life ahead of you and even though the older generation could piss you off with their ignorance you can learn about the mistakes they had and learn from them or either if you find yourself in their shoes than you'll know how to deal with the problem.
So I work at the Alma Library and it's a great job to have. Luckily it's my first real job so I haven't really had any bad jobs, even the jobs my mom gives me sometimes. Well anyways, the worst part about my job is having to deal with people who come in during the summer with spaghetti strap tank tops and shorts that are way too short. I'm not saying like people who look good in them, I'm talking about oldish women old enough to be my grandma wearing this stuff showing cleavage and their fat rolls off. I know it's sort of mean but it's like wear some decent clothes, yeah it's summer but at least have some respect for the people around you, I know it's hard to do now days but you can do it! Another thing is when you get the people who want some kind of book but don't know specifically what kind. For example they have some idea of what type of book they want like war or something and then they say they want some specific war but they don't know what year or the name of it. So it's like you're supose to know what they're talking about, I'm thinking "Ok well, when you find out what you want specifically come back later". Often times though it isn't that difficult, little kids often say oh I want a book on horses or whatever and you can just show them where the horse section is.
My ultimate most favorite part of my job is having the people who owe tons of money to the library due to losing books or what not. I'm talking people who owe like $30 or more. Some of these lovely people come into the library and go on the war-path. They play the typical "well I never got any notice about these overdue/lost books." or "I've never checked out books from this library I don't know what you guys are charging me for." Granted sometimes there are mistakes but it takes two months of not returning books/not paying for lost books to go to a collection agency so they have no room to talk. Of course when I tell them that they owe whatever fines for the books plus the $10 collection agency fine when we send it, they get all defensive and start yelling at me as if it was me who got them into this mess and that I'm the one who sent it to the agency. Oh what wonderful people I encounter sometimes when working at the library.
My ultimate most favorite part of my job is having the people who owe tons of money to the library due to losing books or what not. I'm talking people who owe like $30 or more. Some of these lovely people come into the library and go on the war-path. They play the typical "well I never got any notice about these overdue/lost books." or "I've never checked out books from this library I don't know what you guys are charging me for." Granted sometimes there are mistakes but it takes two months of not returning books/not paying for lost books to go to a collection agency so they have no room to talk. Of course when I tell them that they owe whatever fines for the books plus the $10 collection agency fine when we send it, they get all defensive and start yelling at me as if it was me who got them into this mess and that I'm the one who sent it to the agency. Oh what wonderful people I encounter sometimes when working at the library.
I'm not going to say that all sports are overrated because a lot of them are overshadowed by the main sports, which are taken too seriously. Yeah I'm sure some people would be all pissed because it's bashing their sport but guess what, I don't care. Don't get me wrong, sports are good for exercise and stuff but the thing I believe is that a lot of kids would love to play in sports if they had a choice of what they wanted to do in it. I'm not quite sure where I'm going in this but just try to go along with it. See I love playing tennis, volleyball, and badminton. But of course if you aren't as good as all the rest of the preppy girls then its not fun playing on a court with people who don't like you as much because you aren't popular. Also It's just not those sports it's cheer leading and cheer. Theres a few unpopular girls I know that talked about wanting to join and talked to one of the girls in that sport and right after they got done talking the girl went and made 'yeah right' type of looks and started laughing with her friends. It's just full of drama is all it is.
"Sport - Physical activity that is governed by a set of rules or customs and often engaged in competitively." Which basically says anyone can create a sport which seems cool and all if the sport is fun to play and other people enjoy it. But what would happen if lets say an unpopular kid created a sport and them self and their friends started playing and word got around. I'm almost 99% sure if it was something considered stupid the person would be labeled as a "geek/nerd/___" you fill in the blank.
"Sport - Physical activity that is governed by a set of rules or customs and often engaged in competitively." Which basically says anyone can create a sport which seems cool and all if the sport is fun to play and other people enjoy it. But what would happen if lets say an unpopular kid created a sport and them self and their friends started playing and word got around. I'm almost 99% sure if it was something considered stupid the person would be labeled as a "geek/nerd/___" you fill in the blank.
Obesity in America is something that you see everyday. Everywhere you go you can see people who are overweight and obese. It's saddening to say that its not uncommon to drive down the road or go to the store and see overweight people. What gets me is how some parents you see on television find it alright to let their kids eat whatever they want whenever they want. Kids who are three times their normal body weight for their age eating constantly and distorting how they're suppose to look, not that looks is everything. When they grow up they'll be targeted as being ugly and obese, which in the long run their self-esteem will be extremely low. Yeah we laugh at people who are majorly obese and laugh because they don't have decent nice looking clothes to wear. That's because you have clothing industries that are still stuck in the statistics of the average American sizes from 1950 when everyone was toothpick size. Ever go to the mall and find a shirt that you really like but look for your size and its not there? Maybe its just by chance that they didn't have it but for people who are overweight/obese the chances of finding a cute shirt or nice pants that makes you look nicer is harder to come by.
The thing that bothers me the most is models. Sure you look at them and think "Wow, I wish I looked that slim/good!" I feel bad for models, they're under constant pressure to stay top notch skinny because that's what America wants to see. Would you buy a magazine to look at if it was fat people modeling? I think not.
A probable solution is to regulate health care in a way that you have to be a certain BMI. And for people who are over that there should be some type of weight loss system that they would be on in order to get to a healthy weight. This might seem harsh but it would be for their better well being and but also reduce the costs of having to spend billions of dollars doing surgeries to remove fat or get gastric bypass done because people cant stop eating.
Also I feel welfare is another contributor to supporting obesity. What person wouldn't think sitting home all day watching TV and doing whatever you want pretty much doesn't sound good. You get a check every month for doing nothing, sounds great! While promoting you to be lazy and not find a job, yeah go to classes and weekly requirements to try to make you get a job when really there's people who cheat the system all over just to be able to stay home and do nothing while people who actually work pay for it all. Then when the working people retire then what? They get a monthly paycheck based on what they worked to live on. It makes perfect sense. We work while welfare people don't, then retire and not have enough money because we get little. Even though we worked for the people who did nothing.
The thing that bothers me the most is models. Sure you look at them and think "Wow, I wish I looked that slim/good!" I feel bad for models, they're under constant pressure to stay top notch skinny because that's what America wants to see. Would you buy a magazine to look at if it was fat people modeling? I think not.
A probable solution is to regulate health care in a way that you have to be a certain BMI. And for people who are over that there should be some type of weight loss system that they would be on in order to get to a healthy weight. This might seem harsh but it would be for their better well being and but also reduce the costs of having to spend billions of dollars doing surgeries to remove fat or get gastric bypass done because people cant stop eating.
Also I feel welfare is another contributor to supporting obesity. What person wouldn't think sitting home all day watching TV and doing whatever you want pretty much doesn't sound good. You get a check every month for doing nothing, sounds great! While promoting you to be lazy and not find a job, yeah go to classes and weekly requirements to try to make you get a job when really there's people who cheat the system all over just to be able to stay home and do nothing while people who actually work pay for it all. Then when the working people retire then what? They get a monthly paycheck based on what they worked to live on. It makes perfect sense. We work while welfare people don't, then retire and not have enough money because we get little. Even though we worked for the people who did nothing.
So I just finished my pamphlet for Contemporary Lit. and I'd have to say I like it a lot! Took about 3 1/2 hours or so.. long time I know but it looks good so it was worth it. The one problem I have is that it has a background which would take up more ink to print and so forth but without the background it doesn't look nearly as sweet =\. Also my mom took one look at it and was like.."Isn't that kind of satanic looking? You're not printing that out on our printer are you because I think that's a bit much." Uhm yeah that's the point, it's suppose to look that way because I'm doing it on zombies and yes I planned on printing it on our printer -.- but I guess not now. Soooo I have to figure out a way to be able to print it at school, fun.
Other than doing four lessons of math and other homework..this weekend was fun. Went camping Saturday for the first time this season. We have a fifth wheel that we have a seasonal spot at the River Ridge Campground in Breckenridge. It's pretty nice there and its close enough to where you don't have to spend a lot of money on gas. I took my laptop with me so I could type my lovely family dichotomy paper. I got maybe 1 1/2 pages typed over the span of 2 hours because I kept taking breaks updating my blogger page, which still needs work =\. Today we didn't go to church I don't know why. Instead we went to Mt. Pleasant and went to Meijer, which is kind of pathetic but was glad to go shopping =P. Basically after that I just worked on pamphlet..seems kind of like a boring weekend but I guess for me it was better than sitting home doing absolutely nothing like its been for the past few weekends -.-
Other than doing four lessons of math and other homework..this weekend was fun. Went camping Saturday for the first time this season. We have a fifth wheel that we have a seasonal spot at the River Ridge Campground in Breckenridge. It's pretty nice there and its close enough to where you don't have to spend a lot of money on gas. I took my laptop with me so I could type my lovely family dichotomy paper. I got maybe 1 1/2 pages typed over the span of 2 hours because I kept taking breaks updating my blogger page, which still needs work =\. Today we didn't go to church I don't know why. Instead we went to Mt. Pleasant and went to Meijer, which is kind of pathetic but was glad to go shopping =P. Basically after that I just worked on pamphlet..seems kind of like a boring weekend but I guess for me it was better than sitting home doing absolutely nothing like its been for the past few weekends -.-
I’m still trying to figure out where my place in the world is. Right now I just work and get stuck going to school which has become stressful in the recent weeks. Ohhh it’s so much fun let me tell you -.-. At home I’m bored out of my mind and loaded with homework I don’t feel like dealing with. With senior year quickly approaching I’m going to have to figure out what I want to do. I’ve been considering either going into the Air Force or either taking some basic classes at Mid. The one thing I hate is when people ask me what I’m planning on doing and then when I say either something to do with animals or either be like a graphic designer (I love using Photoshop!) then they lecture me on how I should know what I want to do and go on about how they already knew what they were going to do when they were my age, it’s SO annoying! Not to mention it’s my career I have to decide on without really knowing what all I have to do right now. This summer though I plan to find out more about college and the kind of classes you have to take for the jobs I’m thinking about.
Labels: Life
Guitar Hero 2 has to be the BEST game in the world to play. It's fun and very easy to learn. When my cousin Amanda comes over she brings her PS and we sometimes play GH all day long. I'm not much of a fan of the Guitar Hero 3 because I'm not into that type of music but there are still some songs that are cool to play. The first Guitar Hero I haven't played yet but maybe someday I will =P. It's funny watching adults play it who have never played before because they're trying so hard to figure out how to play on easy mode and because you're on hard mode they're like wow! I love playing Guitar Hero, I hope to get it someday so I don't have to wait for my cousin to come so I can play!!
Labels: Game
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